Well, this is a long one. I have both a list of things I want to do next year, as well as a list of things to do before I die. Then there's a list of places I want to visit. And then there's the things I want to accomplish in life. So I guess I'll just talk about all of those.
The list for next year can actually be found on this site, a few posts down. Just look for the post titled "Things I want to do in 2011."
The list of things I want to do before I die is quite long, and honestly, it just keeps changing. I add things all the time, and I remove things (not often), or I plain just forget some things. To name a few on that list:
- swim with dolphins
- go skydiving
- see the Northern Lights
- walk through the mountains to Macchu Picchu
- attend the World Cup
- learn as many languages as possible
- ride a hot air balloon
- learn to horseback ride
- learn to surf
- go wild water rafting in the Grand Canyon
- hug a panda
- walk the Great Wall of China
- go on a safari
- visit Mount Everest and Kilimanjaro
Yeah, there's tons more. And I'm pretty sure if I sit here I can come up with a super long list. I should start a scrapbook and put one thing per page, and put a picture when I do it. Yep, that's my new plan. Now to get a scrapbook :)
As for places I want to go, well, I want to go to every country. All of them. And I want to visit every state and province. Obviously, there's a few places I want to go more than others, so here's a list of the ones I want to see the most: Macchu Picchu, Scotland, Madrid, Australia, Ireland, London, Galapagos Islands, Jasper National Park, Thailand, Brazil. I could just go on, but I guess that's a good enough list.
And lastly, things I want to accomplish. Well, I'd like to get a great job, maybe writing, maybe doing PR, that pays me well and is stable. I'd like to one day have a PR or event planning or writing-type company that does well, or maybe just have a good position at someone else's company. I'd like to buy a condo, or a house, and have it be nicely furnished. I want to buy a car, maybe a Nissan Rogue or a Lexus RX. I'd like to get married to someone I love and trust and who treats me well and who loves me and trusts me. I'd like to have kids, two, maybe three, and one day have the kind of relationship with them that I have with my mom. I'd like to have a dog. A cute, fluffy dog.
So there you go. My lists. Apparently I want to do a lot. Maybe I should get working on that??
~Suz
Monday, 27 December 2010
30 Days of Truth: Something you have to forgive someone else for.
I've spent some time thinking about this one. There are many things that people have done to me throughout my life that I feel would take a while for me to forgive. Many of them, I haven't forgiven them, and I probably never will.
I can hold grudges for a very long time. I can be angry for years, or just not willing to let go and move on because I don't want to.
But honestly, I can't think of anything I feel the need to forgive others for. The problem with this one is that it asks you not for something that you felt was done to you and would require forgiveness, but for something I feel I need to forgive for. So I'm going to have to say that I don't feel the need to forgive anything I haven't already forgiven.
So I guess this one will be left unanswered?? Oh, well. Maybe I'll have better luck with the next one.
~Suz
I can hold grudges for a very long time. I can be angry for years, or just not willing to let go and move on because I don't want to.
But honestly, I can't think of anything I feel the need to forgive others for. The problem with this one is that it asks you not for something that you felt was done to you and would require forgiveness, but for something I feel I need to forgive for. So I'm going to have to say that I don't feel the need to forgive anything I haven't already forgiven.
So I guess this one will be left unanswered?? Oh, well. Maybe I'll have better luck with the next one.
~Suz
Being sick sucks.
I have the flu. It sucks. It made Christmas sucky, and now I had to reschedule the Christmas dinner since I'm clearly too sick to have ppl over.
This shit better be gone by New Year's Eve. Otherwise, my choices are to party while sick, or stay home alone sick. Both suck.
Christmas was not the best. So we went to my aunt's for Christmas. You know, I love her, and I love her family, but I feel like she judges who we are and how we are and like she's decided we've gone wrong somewhere. But at the same time, she doesn't want to hear anything bad about her brother, so there's no point in explaining to her what we feel is wrong. So I guess she thinks it's all my mom's fault too.
She seems to think that the opinions we have of my dad are opinions that my mom put on us. I mean, really?? What are we, six years old and unable to form our own?? My dad left. He didn't give a shit, and when he pretended to, he did a shitty fucking job. How are we supposed to see him as anything besides the fuck up who walked away?? It's become a joke in our house, to say "you got that from your dad" or "well, you're definitely a Silva". Saying we're like him is an insult to us, and really, that's his fault. What kind of person makes their kids feel as though he doesn't love them or want them?? I know Gaby feels that way. It's her own opinion; my mom never told her how to feel.
In fact, my mom was more than nice towards him. She never insulted him in front of us, she never said bad things about him, she never tried to turn us against him - all of which he did to her. She never said no when we wanted to see him, or tried to stop us when we wanted to live with him. She let him have his million chances with his kids, and he fucked them all up. So please, stop looking at us like we're asshole for thinking of him as a joke. That is all he is to us. A fucking joke.
As for how we are, well, stop judging it. Maybe we're not as obedient as your kids, but we love and respect each other. Just because we call each other names and make fun of each other doesn't mean anything. If my mom were to tell me tomorrow that I can't do something, I'd laugh. I mean, really, I'm 26. The time to parent me has come and gone. But as someone I respect and whose friendship I value, I would take her advice into careful consideration. Her opinion is incredibly important to me, and at the same time, we can hang out and talk and laugh and gossip. I really feel like our relationship is incredible.
And for Jose?? Well, he's special. But we've accepted him. It's time you do too. If you can't accept who we are and how we feel about life (and about your brother), then maybe we shouldn't really be spending holidays together, regardless of how much we love you.
~Suz
This shit better be gone by New Year's Eve. Otherwise, my choices are to party while sick, or stay home alone sick. Both suck.
Christmas was not the best. So we went to my aunt's for Christmas. You know, I love her, and I love her family, but I feel like she judges who we are and how we are and like she's decided we've gone wrong somewhere. But at the same time, she doesn't want to hear anything bad about her brother, so there's no point in explaining to her what we feel is wrong. So I guess she thinks it's all my mom's fault too.
She seems to think that the opinions we have of my dad are opinions that my mom put on us. I mean, really?? What are we, six years old and unable to form our own?? My dad left. He didn't give a shit, and when he pretended to, he did a shitty fucking job. How are we supposed to see him as anything besides the fuck up who walked away?? It's become a joke in our house, to say "you got that from your dad" or "well, you're definitely a Silva". Saying we're like him is an insult to us, and really, that's his fault. What kind of person makes their kids feel as though he doesn't love them or want them?? I know Gaby feels that way. It's her own opinion; my mom never told her how to feel.
In fact, my mom was more than nice towards him. She never insulted him in front of us, she never said bad things about him, she never tried to turn us against him - all of which he did to her. She never said no when we wanted to see him, or tried to stop us when we wanted to live with him. She let him have his million chances with his kids, and he fucked them all up. So please, stop looking at us like we're asshole for thinking of him as a joke. That is all he is to us. A fucking joke.
As for how we are, well, stop judging it. Maybe we're not as obedient as your kids, but we love and respect each other. Just because we call each other names and make fun of each other doesn't mean anything. If my mom were to tell me tomorrow that I can't do something, I'd laugh. I mean, really, I'm 26. The time to parent me has come and gone. But as someone I respect and whose friendship I value, I would take her advice into careful consideration. Her opinion is incredibly important to me, and at the same time, we can hang out and talk and laugh and gossip. I really feel like our relationship is incredible.
And for Jose?? Well, he's special. But we've accepted him. It's time you do too. If you can't accept who we are and how we feel about life (and about your brother), then maybe we shouldn't really be spending holidays together, regardless of how much we love you.
~Suz
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