Tuesday 8 January 2008

Make up your mind, and I'll make up mine...

So I'm really mad. At Jack. He just doesn't get it. And at Kasia. She's dumb sometimes.

So Jack. I've decided that obviously I lean on him too much. I tell him too many things. I feel too close to him. Now, none of this is anything more than in a friend way, but apparently he thinks otherwise.

So this weekend, he told me that I made him uncomfortable and that it was too close for him. So I slept on the couch. And then he also spent time telling me that if he was me, he wouldn't have let Anthony and Ela be so close, because that's what led to Anthony wanting to ask out Ela. And that if he was Krystal, he wouldn't let me and Jarx be so close, and basically that I've crossed the line with all the guys I know.

Which really just makes me feel kinda like a dirty whore.

So first, I don't think he has any right to say that I've crossed any kind of line with anyone else. If the girlfriends of those guys felt that I had crossed any kind of line, believe me, they would have said something. I'm sure the guys would also have said something if they felt uncomfortable or if I was doing something wrong. Nor does Jack have any right to say that I should have stopped Ela and Anthony from hanging out. Maybe one day, when he has a gf, he can tell her not to hang out with someone. And then we'll see how well that works out for him.

As for New Years, it meant nothing. Really, I don't know why I asked him to get in the bed, but I did. And really, once he was there, of course I moved closer. It was an automatic, drunken reaction. It wasn't 'cause I wanted him, it was because he was there. It was because I needed someone and I thought that he would understand that it wasn't meant to be anything more.

But so apparenlty I was wrong. And so I've decided to step back. In everything. Either we're not as close friends as I thought, or he really doesn't understand me at all. In either case, I'm stepping back. I don't really want to be told that I make someone uncomfortable, so I'm just gonna avoid all that. But now I know. Next time, I'll lean on someone else.

And then there's Kasia. She flipped out at Tom this weekend. All because she decided that she didn't really want the girls' night, and that we should invite the guys. So I was talked into it, and when we told Tom, he wasn't so into it. And then there was a fight. Which for some reason ended with her being pissed at me because I depress her and I bring her down and she can't deal with me. Oh, and also becuase apparently she gets no alone time with Tom anymore. Especially because Rose was there. But seriously, Rose was there for like half a day with her, and Kasia even told me that Rose slept through most of that.

And then, after all the bitching, and her calling me a liar and all that, she comes over to apologize. Except her apology goes more like, "Sorry, I didn't mean to say that, but it's just that you depress me and Tom doesn't help with that, and I don't get alone time with him because Rose was there." Ummmm, what the fuck is the point of even bothering to come over to me and say that??

So now I'm kinda doing with her what I did with Jack. Exactly what she asked, even if it wasn't what she meant. I'm not calling her when I need someone to talk to, and I'm giving her the space she wants. But then she got mad at me for not calling her yesterday. Apparently I'm supposed to be psychic and guess when she needs alone time and when she wants me to call her.

I swear, you fucking people have to make up your minds. You can't have it both ways. Either I do what you asked, or I don't change anything at all, regardless of how crowded or uncomfortable you felt. Pick one.

But whatever. If people want to talk about it, then know where to reach me. There's at least four ways I can thinkg of (msn, cell, home phone, facebook). If not, it stays this way. At least, for now.

And so yeah, this weekend is girls' night. The original reason for this night was that I thought that Anthony would be having some sort of bday party or something, and that everyone would go there. So I figured that if I took Kasia, Ela, and Jessica away from his thing, it wouldn't really make a diff to him. But now that he's deleted everyone off facebook, I don't know what's happening. But as far as I know, no one has gotten any kind of msg or txt from him inviting them to anything. So I guess I don't have to feel too guilty about it.

So far, the for sure people are me, Robin, Kasia, Ela, Krystal, Jessica and Gaby. I don't know if Tamara and Angela are coming for sure. I hope they do. It's gonna be pretty good. We're going to dinner first, don't know where yet. Maybe the Mexican restaurant by Yuk Yuk's. And then we're gonna be coming back to my building, where we're using the furnished suite. And we're gonna watch some girly movies (i.e. Clueless, Hocus Pocus, 10 Things I Hate About You, and so on), and eat some yummy finger foods from M&M's. So good. And I'm thinking of making some dip. I bought a little recipe book that has just dips in it, so I'm thinking of making two, maybe three. And I'm also making nachos. And some ice cream?? Yeah, I should buy some.

And friday I'm going to some restaurant called Vecchio Frak. It's downtown. It's for Nida's bday. They're going to Inside after, but I'm not going to the club with them. Well, we all know me, I may change my mind and end up going. But I doubt it.

Anywyas, I'm done my rant now. And I think it's bed time. Nighty night.
~Susana

Wednesday 2 January 2008

Good times in the last few days!!

So the Christmas dinner at Kasia's house went really well. Rose was here, and she got to meet everyone. And everyone got along, there were no fights, no tantrums. It was good.

And so the food was good. Everyone loved my mom's rice. I love it, and for some reason I never thought to bring it. Mainly 'cause I don't know how to cook rice. Seriously, I have no idea. But so she made it for me, and I just put it in the oven at Kasia's.

And I loved my gift. Krystal got me a Hello Kitty bubble bath, and massive Eyore coffee cup, and the Firefly DVD set, which I am super excited about. I've been wanting to buy it ever since I saw Serenity. I don't know why I never watched it when it was on TV. I should have known that it was by the same guy who did Buffy and Angel, and so I would love it.

But yeah, anyways. So I convinced everyone to come to the club for New Year's. I was still a little iffy about going, but I wanted everyone to come. And they all agreed, and I bought the tickets. Of course, everyone was pretty drunk, so it made it easier to convince people that they really wanted to come to the club.

So the club was actually better than I thought. It was pretty packed, and the drinks were pretty strong, and the music was pretty good. And yes, me and Rose danced on the stripper pole. Yeah, I know, we're awesome.

And then we went to back to Kasia's house. Where we drank and drank and kept going. Until like 7 am. Yeah, Tom was sick. And we had to put Rose to bed. And the rest of us were pretty plastered. I'm not sure how I was still standing, I had tons of booze. I had one spiced rum and coke and two tequilla shots before we left, 8 rum and cokes and one vodka seven at the club, and when we got back I had about 8-10 tequilla shots, two spiced rum and coke, I chugged Rose's super strong vodka and coke, and I had a rye and coke. Yeah, I'm pretty surprised I didn't die.

So yeah, there was a lot of running around and falling over and dancing. And I think I tried to run away at one point, but Jack chased me down in the snow with no shoes on. Yeah, it was crazy. And then I cleaned up Tom's puke with some windex and nail polish remover. And then we went to bed.

Then the next morning, we went to Sizzling Jak's for breakfast. It was yummy.

So yeah, I think Rose had a good time here. We took her to pupusas and to thai food. And she got to meet all my friends and party with us. Now I just have to figure out when to go visit her...maybe a Halifax road trip sometime next year!!

Anyways, I think I need to go to bed now, I have to go to work tomorrow. Super short, not too detailed post, I know, but it's late. So maybe tomorrow or the day after I'll write another post on what's been going on.
Nighty night.
~Susana