30 Days of Truth: Some­thing peo­ple seem to com­pli­ment you the most on.

So I thought about this one, and it's taken me a while to come up with what people compliment. I've come up with my writing, and my personality (I know, that's super surprising to some of you).

My writing is something that most people will compliment me on, if they've seen it. Sometimes, people I didn't know were reading my stuff will tell me they liked it, which is super awesome to hear. Sometimes I'll get messages from people I've never met in places I've never been telling me that they liked what I wrote, or that they agree, or that they disagree...still, having a total stranger care enough to write a comment is awesome. Now if only I could find a writing job, that would be great!!

Surprisingly, my personality gets me a lot of compliments. If someone were to ask me to describe myself, I'd use words like bitchy, moody, or lazy. But for some reason, a lot of the people who know me tell me how much they appreciate my friendliness, my enthusiasm, my selflessness, my willingness to help out, my ability to listen and offer advice, and so many other things I would have never used to describe me.

So yeah, those are the two I get the most. I get hit on a surprising amount, so I'm assuming that people think I'm good looking, but don't normally tell me that. My awesome boyfriend tells me that all the time, though :D That makes me happy.

~Suz

30 Days of Truth: Some­one you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

There are actually a lot of people that fit in this category. I've recently come to the conclusion that a lot of people in my life are not healthy for me. This doesn't make it any easier for me to walk away from them. As we all know, I will fight forever to make something work...until I can't anymore.

I've actually been thinking a lot about this recently. I would absolutely love to lead a drama-free life and just be happy in the knowledge that all the people I know are honest with me and would have my back if I needed them....but that's sadly not the case. I don't really believe that everyone I know would stand behind me if I needed them to.

I'm not a fan of fake people. I try to be honest, and I tell people what I think and how I feel 90% of the time. I don't want to talk about someone behind their back and then pretend that I'm their friend when I'm with them. I don't want to beat the same topic to death and I don't want to hate anyone. But at the same time, I'm not sitting her listing everyone that I'm thinking of, because like I said, I'm only honest 90% of the time. It's not that I hate them or want to never speak to them again, I just wish it could be different.

A few people I really did wish I could let go or wish I'd just never met: my dad, my ex, my mom's ex, a few people at Lavalife. Yep, that's about it.

30 Days of Truth: Some­one you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Well, this would be an incredibly long list. I've come to the conclusion that I am terrible at keeping in touch with people. I don't call, I don't always go to events I'm invited to, I don't txt or send msgs.

I try to stay in touch, I do. Well, I guess Facebook doesn't really count, so maybe I don't, then. It doesn't help that my phone number has changed a million times in the last 10 years, that I've moved a few times, and that I don't work at the same location.

I don't actually hang out with anyone from high school, much less elementary school. That bothers me, 'cause there were tons of people that were awesome and that I'd love to see again, but like always, I never do anything about it. The only people I hang out with that I met in high school didn't even go to Pocock!! And the few people in my life that went to Pocock I met long after I (and they) had left.

And what about STM people?? What about the BFFs??? I suck. Maybe it's about time I start msging ppl and seeing if we can catch up. Maybe it'll be awesome!!

So don't be surprised, if you haven't heard from me in a while, to get a call or msg or facebook post from me. It's just me missing you.

~Suz

30 Days of Truth: Someone who has/had made your life hell

Hmmmm...how to answer this one. Well, I'm gonna take the easy (and kinda truthful) way out, and say no one. There really isn't anyone who has made my life incredibly hellish, and there definitely isn't anyone who has done it purposely and for a prolonged period of time.

I think it'd be unfair to name people here who have done something that made my life difficult for a small period of time, or who did something, not on purpose, that made my life hell.

I can think of a lot of people who have done shit to me that makes my life hard, or made me feel worthless, or have done what they can to bring me down. But I don't really want to start a list of everyone who has ever hurt or wronged me.

Also, I'm trying to have less drama and gossip and I'm trying to learn to let things go, so that's all I'm going to say on this one.

~Suz

30 Days of Truth: Someone who has made your life worth living for

So this one is harder. I guess it depends on what they mean by "made your life worth living for." I'm gonna assume it's not meant in a "I-love-you-so-much-and-I-can't-live-without-you" way, but more as someone who has made your life enjoyable or has helped make your life more fun and interesting. Someone who is there for you when you need them and can cheer you up if they have to. Not necessarily someone you admire, just someone who you can call a good friend.

So I thought about this, and I'm going to have to say two people fit into this for me. I'm going to have to say my mom and Jarx.

I picked my mom because seeing everything she's given up for us makes me want to show her it was worth it. Watching her struggle and deal with shitty jobs and low income and four kids makes me realize that someone out there loves me unconditionally and will do everything she can, and give up anything she needs to, to make me happy and safe and loved. And that makes me want to live my life and do great things and succeed. One day, I hope she'll be able to look at my life and be proud of the person I've become and the things I've done, and she'll realize that what she did meant the world to me.

Jarx...well, I promised him I'd name him in something :p But no, really, he helps. Lets me ramble on about the shit in my life, tries to give me advice he knows I won't listen to, comes over and eats my food....but he's there if I need him. And I'm determined we should go on more trips. We have fun, and you know it!!

....so trip soon, Jarx??

~Suz

30 Days of Truth: Something you hope to never have to do

Well, this one really wasn't too hard. I hope I never have to watch a friend die. I hope I never have to bury a child. I hope none of my friends or family ever go missing, get kidnapped or abducted, or just disappear. I hope I never have to watch someone I care about spiral down into self-destruct mode and lose everything in their life.

Yeah, short, but there's really not m uch to elaborate on.

~Suz