If I wrote more often, I could come up with better titles than "an update".

So it's been a while since I wrote, and it's time for yet another super quick update. That's all this blog seems to have, sporadic updates.

So what's new?? Lots. Will I mention it all?? Nope, that's too much work. So we'll do a point-form sorta update.

Work: I'm at RBC. Still on contract, but so far they keep extending it. Keep your fingers crossed that they keep me!! I don't work at a branch, it's an office position at one of their many head offices. As of January, my position will be part of the IT department, which is weird, and I'll be in a building in front of the CN Tower. It's gonna be awesome!! I like the ppl I work with, too. They're pretty cool. I think it's time we did dinner and drinks again!!

Living Space: I'm back at my mom's. I suck. I don't know when I'll move back out. I hate that I'm 27 and still living at home. Why must I fail at everything??

Health: I've gained weight again. Sadly, I'm gonna HAVE to start going to the gym again. I hate it, but it must be done. And I'll have to go back on the diet too. Once again, why must I fail at everything????

Love: I'm still with Matt. He's still awesome. I'm still happy. :) I think things are going great. If they're not, well, feel free to let me know, Matt!!

Family: We don't hate each other. We even all went to the beach, just us siblings. And Gaby's bf. And no one died!! My mom is seeing a new guy. He's pretty cool, and he makers her very happy. So I'm super happy for her.

Friends: Still don't see most of them too often. I've now got like 4 different groups of friends, and making time to see them all, separately, is hard!! But I am seeing the Latin crew this weekend, and then I'm going to a party with some people I haven't seen in years. Some since high school!! It's gonna be awesome!!

Money: Need more. Spend too much. Have to learn to save. Still suck at managing.

So there you go. Updated. I would promise to try harder to update or tell you that I'll update soon...but I'd be lying. So let's just be honest: I'll update again in six months.

Okie, bye bye.

~Susana

A Happy Update - I know, so rare!!

Hallo there, pretty people!!

So I thought I'd do a quick update. It's been like three weeks since I turned old, so I guess it's time for an entry.

First off, work. So I've just been hired as a freelance reporter for the Mississauga News. Now, this isn't a full-time, monday to friday job. It's more of an on-call thing, where if one of their employees can't cover something, or they have people on vacation, then they call me. The upside to this is that this is a paid journalism job. As in, I will get assignments, I'll write them up, and they'll be printed. And they can all go into my portfolio, and hopefully that means I'll be able to get a full-time writing job soon. So this is super great. I am now officially a journalist. High school goal: complete!! :D

On to something else awesome: the first weekend in April I'm going up to Ottawa with a bunch of people to attend my first ever NHL game!!! I'm not a hockey fan, but I am super excited!! It's Ottawa vs. Toronto. I'm really looking forward to it. I'm glad Nick invited Jess and I. Maybe it'll turn me into a hockey fan?? I can always try :)

My fan fiction stories are now up. Two are one-shots (so basically a short, one chapter story), and one is multi-chapter. So far only one chapter is up, but I'm working on it. I've already had a few people put it on alert, which makes me incredibly happy. I've also worked on my other fiction story, In The Midst Of Lies, but I haven't posted the new chapters yet. Maybe tonight I will. Or tomorrow. Soon, I promise!!

My allergies are getting better. I'm on week three of the weekly shots, and it's gotten bearable now. I no longer want to rip my skin off all the time. Just sometimes. Which is way better than before, though, so I'm glad. It'll be great to not be covered in scabs and scars from freaking hives and allergies. It's just stupid.

My back started to go out again, but I refused to sit at home and cry about it this time, so it actually only lasted a few days. And most of those days were okay: I was walking around, sitting, standing, driving...even wearing heels and dancing!! Sunday was bad (it started saturday night), but after that it was okay. I think I'm actually going to look into it, though, and see what can be done about it. I can't live the rest of my life afraid of lifting something heavy, or turning the wrong way too fast, or bending funny.

So yeah, that's my update. I think it's a happy update, overall, which is kinda awesome. I like it when things go well, even if it's small things. Maybe the upward trend will continue?? I think it's about time I see some good and not shittiness. Anyways, I'll try to update ITMOL later. And you guys can all check out my fanfic stories here if you guys want.

Bye bye for now!!
~Suz

Ewww, I'm turning old tomorrow!!

So I guess it's time I update everyone on my life. It's been a while since I wrote a non-30 Days of Truth post. Although I should prolly get back on track with those posts too.

So, work. I am, once again, unemployed. The last place I was working, Vengeo, was an interesting place, with a program that i do actually like, but not the best work environment for me. There was a lot to be done, and I was fulfilling like 4 roles. Although I did enjoy writing the news release and the newsletter and all the PR stuff, it's prolly for the best that I'm not there anymore. I do miss my laptop, though.

And so I'm looking for a new job. I'm hoping to find something in the media field, preferably with writing or editing or something like that involved. I'd love to be able to write for a living. So everyone should just keep their fingers crossed. Also, if you see something you think I'd be great in, please let me know!!

I'm still living with Benny, and it's still going pretty well. I've met a bunch of her Latvians, and they're pretty awesome. Although I don't agree with her insistence that I need to leave my boyfriend for a Latvian guy, I do agree that they're pretty awesome. And good looking. Living downtown is still pretty awesome, and I'm getting the hang of being able to wander around and find almost anything to eat or buy or see or do. And my apartment, although haunted, is still great. It's more homey now, since we have blinds and curtains and a slightly bigger TV.

Matt and I are doing okay. Things after New Year's were a bit iffy, and we didn't see each other for like two weeks. He was off in Montreal, and I did something that, even unintentional, was not cool. But we've talked, and I think we're doing pretty good now. I'm trying to be more open and to talk to him about things instead of wallowing and shutting him out. It's hard, but I'm really trying. Also, I'm trying to be less of a bitch and more upbeat. It's not easy, since I feel bitchy and moody and down are my natural states, but you know, I'm trying.

Things are good health-wise, except for my crazy allergies. I've been told I have to have an allergy shot every week, which sucks, but hopefully it'll make the crazy itching stop. I'm gonna scratch my skin off soon!! I ordered the serum, but sadly, it takes sic weeks to get here, and it's only been like three. I really hope it comes soon.

So I turn 27 tomorrow. I'm not gonna lie, that's pretty old. Where did time go?? It doesn't seem like it was that long ago that I was 19 and thinking I had years before I had to be an adult. And it kinda sucks, 'cause I look on facebook and see people getting married, having kids, and buying houses, and being adults, and I feel like I'm no where near that stage in my life. But I guess everyone hits that at different times?? Regardless, I hope soon I can be one of the adults, settled into a career and working towards a home and a family. I don't even know if I want kids, but still, I want to get to the stage where that is an option.

Ugh, I think I'm just getting old. At least my party will be fun times!! At least, I hope it will be.

Anyways, that's my update for now. Maybe you'll get one in another few months?? But don't worry, at least you'll get a few more 30 Days of Truth updates soon!!

~Suz

Being sick sucks.

I have the flu. It sucks. It made Christmas sucky, and now I had to reschedule the Christmas dinner since I'm clearly too sick to have ppl over.

This shit better be gone by New Year's Eve. Otherwise, my choices are to party while sick, or stay home alone sick. Both suck.

Christmas was not the best. So we went to my aunt's for Christmas. You know, I love her, and I love her family, but I feel like she judges who we are and how we are and like she's decided we've gone wrong somewhere. But at the same time, she doesn't want to hear anything bad about her brother, so there's no point in explaining to her what we feel is wrong. So I guess she thinks it's all my mom's fault too.

She seems to think that the opinions we have of my dad are opinions that my mom put on us. I mean, really?? What are we, six years old and unable to form our own?? My dad left. He didn't give a shit, and when he pretended to, he did a shitty fucking job. How are we supposed to see him as anything besides the fuck up who walked away?? It's become a joke in our house, to say "you got that from your dad" or "well, you're definitely a Silva". Saying we're like him is an insult to us, and really, that's his fault. What kind of person makes their kids feel as though he doesn't love them or want them?? I know Gaby feels that way. It's her own opinion; my mom never told her how to feel.

In fact, my mom was more than nice towards him. She never insulted him in front of us, she never said bad things about him, she never tried to turn us against him - all of which he did to her. She never said no when we wanted to see him, or tried to stop us when we wanted to live with him. She let him have his million chances with his kids, and he fucked them all up. So please, stop looking at us like we're asshole for thinking of him as a joke. That is all he is to us. A fucking joke.

As for how we are, well, stop judging it. Maybe we're not as obedient as your kids, but we love and respect each other. Just because we call each other names and make fun of each other doesn't mean anything. If my mom were to tell me tomorrow that I can't do something, I'd laugh. I mean, really, I'm 26. The time to parent me has come and gone. But as someone I respect and whose friendship I value, I would take her advice into careful consideration. Her opinion is incredibly important to me, and at the same time, we can hang out and talk and laugh and gossip. I really feel like our relationship is incredible.

And for Jose?? Well, he's special. But we've accepted him. It's time you do too. If you can't accept who we are and how we feel about life (and about your brother), then maybe we shouldn't really be spending holidays together, regardless of how much we love you.

~Suz