So I got a text message this weekend telling me I don't update this often enough and you wanna know what's up in my life. Really?? I mean, hello?!?! Didn't you see the barrage of posts?? There's, like, 4 in the last month. That's pretty freaking incredible for me!!
God, you're so demanding. Yeah, you know who you are.
So I figured that I'd update, since I should have been having coffee with you, except you bailed, asshole. although you know, if you had met me for coffee like you were supposed to, you'd know what's up in my life. Yeah, I'm sticking my tongue out at you. That's right, I am mature.
So yes, update.
What's new?? Nothing. I'm still applying to tons of jobs everyday. At least now I'm starting to get some call backs or emails and interviews. So I guess that's progress. Hopefully I'll be able to join the land of the employed soon.
I've been reading a lot. I was feeling sick all week, so after sending out some resumes in the morning, the sick would catch up with me and I'd lay down and read a book. Man, I forgot how much I love reading, and just how fast I can go through a book. Last week I read 10.
Now, none of those books were epic-sized. They were about 300-450 pages each. So although I wasn't as awesomely productive as I was hoping to be, at least not in the job-search department, I did manage to get some reading done. I'm now re-reading the Witching Hour by Anne Rice. I love her books, but I forgot how much she goes on and on and on and on and on (you get the point, right??) with useless information and descriptions and backstory. But still, love it. Haven't read them since high school. Hopefully they're just as good as I remember.
Lucky is pretty blind now, so it's a challenge to make sure he's eating and drinking water and making sure he doesn't bang his head against the wall 400 times a day. He's lost all his energy and just lays near me all day. It breaks my heart to know that he can't see anything. I still remember the crazy, palm-sized mini puppy that would run outside and was impossible to catch. I just wish I could fix him and make him last another 10, 15, 40 years. I can't pretend it's not gonna kill me when he dies, and I haven't yet accepted the possibility that it could be soon.
I don't really have any other updates. I'm looking forward to watching The Hunger Games; I'm excited for the day it's warm enough to go to the beach; I'm looking forward to possibly seeing Matt's baby pictures soon. I've been doing insanity, and I'll prolly write an update on that one eventually. I've decided e-readers are NOT tools of the devil. I really want to go kayaking or canoeing this summer, preferably while camping up in Tobermory. I'm thinking of planning a May 2-4 trip, since I've promised Gaby for years I'd take her. I'm making a family tree, and I've realized I've got a shit ton of relatives.
Yeah. So updated. Happy, jerkface??
Monday, 26 March 2012
Friday, 9 March 2012
A trip home?? So exciting!!
So my cousin is getting married in November, and I'm super happy for him. I'm also happy that he gave me advance notice, and hopefully I'll be able to go.
Now, I haven't as of yet been able to find a job, so I'm running short on time for saving. I'm still hopeful, though, that if I get a job soon, make a budget, and stick to it, I'll be able to go with no problem. I know, I know. A budget. But in the end, if I really want to go, and I really want to be there for his day, then I'll make it happen. I've always said I'll be there for it, and I'll do whatever I need to make it happen.
Happily, Matt has agreed to come with me. I'm super excited to show him around and introduce him to all the people I love and miss. I'm also super excited to take him to the beach and show him my favourite place in the world. Los Cobanos is my little piece of heaven.
I'm not sure yet where we'll be staying. I want to go for a little longer than a week, that way I can spend some time with my cousin before he gets married and goes on his honeymoon. So I'm thinking we can fly in on the Wednesday or Thursday before the wedding, and stay at my aunt's until Sunday. After that, I'm not sure if we should find a hotel in San Salvador, or even just stay at my aunt's, so we could have her drive us and go sightseeing and stuff every day, or go stay at the Royal Decameron Salinitas, which is the all-inclusive resort on the beach I love so much. The only problem with staying at that hotel would be that it's too far for my aunt to drive us every day, so we'd have to either pay for hotel tours or only go sightseeing maybe three days. I guess I'll have to figure it out with Matt and my aunt closer to the actual date.
But there are a bunch of places I want to show him!! I want to go see el volcan de Santa Ana, and hopefully try and go to the crater. I read that it should be done with a police escort, but those can be arranged the day before. I also want to go to el lago Coatepeque, and maybe go to Illobasco. I also want him to be able to walk around the little towns, 'cause they're totally different than walking around the city here. And of course, I want to take him to a pupuseria and to Los Cebollines and the restaurant in Punta Roca. I'm just not sure what's safe and what's not. I figure if my aunt says it's not safe, I'll call my cousins (on my dad's side) and see if maybe they can help.
I do plan on calling the Silvas and trying to meet up with all of them. I assume my dad will be there, since they'll prolly invite the whole family. I'm okay with that, 'cause I want to see my brothers. I'm hoping they can put something together. I just don't want to see them on the 11th, because as petty as it may sound, that's my dad's bday, and I don't want to it to seem like I'm there for his day. Unfortunately, though, that might be the best day to do it. I guess I'll figure that out when I call them, which I don't plan to do until I know for sure when I'll be there.
I'm so excited!! I'm gonna have some mango cumbia, and some chancletas, and some marañones and jocotes. And some atol de elote. And some tartaritas!!
Yeah, beyond excited. I love the things my country has to offer. Food is awesome, and the places are great. And it helps that I have family there.
Of course, Matt's not happy that it's the second most dangerous country in the world. Yeah, apparently, it has more deaths per 100,000 people than most African countries. That's freaking crazy!! But since most of those deaths are gang-related and not directed at tourists, I'm thinking we'll be okay. I think as long as we stay out of dangerous neighbourhoods, we should be okay.
But yes, excited. I'm hopeful that everything will, for once, go according to plan and work out. so I guess I'll keep you updated.
And is it weird that after living in Canada for almost 20 years, I still say that I'm going 'back home' or just say 'home' when I refer to El Salvador?? Home is clearly in Canada...
Now, I haven't as of yet been able to find a job, so I'm running short on time for saving. I'm still hopeful, though, that if I get a job soon, make a budget, and stick to it, I'll be able to go with no problem. I know, I know. A budget. But in the end, if I really want to go, and I really want to be there for his day, then I'll make it happen. I've always said I'll be there for it, and I'll do whatever I need to make it happen.
Happily, Matt has agreed to come with me. I'm super excited to show him around and introduce him to all the people I love and miss. I'm also super excited to take him to the beach and show him my favourite place in the world. Los Cobanos is my little piece of heaven.
I'm not sure yet where we'll be staying. I want to go for a little longer than a week, that way I can spend some time with my cousin before he gets married and goes on his honeymoon. So I'm thinking we can fly in on the Wednesday or Thursday before the wedding, and stay at my aunt's until Sunday. After that, I'm not sure if we should find a hotel in San Salvador, or even just stay at my aunt's, so we could have her drive us and go sightseeing and stuff every day, or go stay at the Royal Decameron Salinitas, which is the all-inclusive resort on the beach I love so much. The only problem with staying at that hotel would be that it's too far for my aunt to drive us every day, so we'd have to either pay for hotel tours or only go sightseeing maybe three days. I guess I'll have to figure it out with Matt and my aunt closer to the actual date.
But there are a bunch of places I want to show him!! I want to go see el volcan de Santa Ana, and hopefully try and go to the crater. I read that it should be done with a police escort, but those can be arranged the day before. I also want to go to el lago Coatepeque, and maybe go to Illobasco. I also want him to be able to walk around the little towns, 'cause they're totally different than walking around the city here. And of course, I want to take him to a pupuseria and to Los Cebollines and the restaurant in Punta Roca. I'm just not sure what's safe and what's not. I figure if my aunt says it's not safe, I'll call my cousins (on my dad's side) and see if maybe they can help.
I do plan on calling the Silvas and trying to meet up with all of them. I assume my dad will be there, since they'll prolly invite the whole family. I'm okay with that, 'cause I want to see my brothers. I'm hoping they can put something together. I just don't want to see them on the 11th, because as petty as it may sound, that's my dad's bday, and I don't want to it to seem like I'm there for his day. Unfortunately, though, that might be the best day to do it. I guess I'll figure that out when I call them, which I don't plan to do until I know for sure when I'll be there.
I'm so excited!! I'm gonna have some mango cumbia, and some chancletas, and some marañones and jocotes. And some atol de elote. And some tartaritas!!
Yeah, beyond excited. I love the things my country has to offer. Food is awesome, and the places are great. And it helps that I have family there.
Of course, Matt's not happy that it's the second most dangerous country in the world. Yeah, apparently, it has more deaths per 100,000 people than most African countries. That's freaking crazy!! But since most of those deaths are gang-related and not directed at tourists, I'm thinking we'll be okay. I think as long as we stay out of dangerous neighbourhoods, we should be okay.
But yes, excited. I'm hopeful that everything will, for once, go according to plan and work out. so I guess I'll keep you updated.
And is it weird that after living in Canada for almost 20 years, I still say that I'm going 'back home' or just say 'home' when I refer to El Salvador?? Home is clearly in Canada...
Thursday, 8 March 2012
30 Days of Truth: A letter to a hero that has let you down.
14. A letter to a hero that has let you down.
I've never really had a hero. There wasn't any one person that I looked up to and wanted to be like. There wasn't anyone that I greatly admired, at least, not anyone that has let me down.
I guess really the person that has let me down the most is me. So I'll just write me a letter as though I was trying to give my 16-year-old self some advice.
Dear me,
Lately you've been skipping a lot of class and ignoring all your homework, and I know you feel this is a great plan, but I need you to reconsider. Right now, all you say to that is something like, "meh, whatever," but a few years down the line, you'll wish you'd done it differently.
Class and homework are more important than you think, and so is going to a good school and getting a degree. I'd like you to put a little more work towards your future, as right now it's looking kinda bleak.
You also need to know that people do love you. I know it seems like no one cares and it wouldn't matter if you were gone, but believe me, it would. You have made an impact in people's lives and there are people you will meet whose lives will be much better for having you in them. You will also find someone who loves you for who and how you are, so you don't need to pretend for anyone.
Your father's opinion doesn't matter, so stop trying so hard to get his attention. Your mom's love and opinion matters, and she's there if you're willing to try. She'll always be there. Your siblings will be awesome...one day when they're not young and annoying.
Also, learn to manage money. Please. This is key.
Love,
Susana
I've never really had a hero. There wasn't any one person that I looked up to and wanted to be like. There wasn't anyone that I greatly admired, at least, not anyone that has let me down.
I guess really the person that has let me down the most is me. So I'll just write me a letter as though I was trying to give my 16-year-old self some advice.
Dear me,
Lately you've been skipping a lot of class and ignoring all your homework, and I know you feel this is a great plan, but I need you to reconsider. Right now, all you say to that is something like, "meh, whatever," but a few years down the line, you'll wish you'd done it differently.
Class and homework are more important than you think, and so is going to a good school and getting a degree. I'd like you to put a little more work towards your future, as right now it's looking kinda bleak.
You also need to know that people do love you. I know it seems like no one cares and it wouldn't matter if you were gone, but believe me, it would. You have made an impact in people's lives and there are people you will meet whose lives will be much better for having you in them. You will also find someone who loves you for who and how you are, so you don't need to pretend for anyone.
Your father's opinion doesn't matter, so stop trying so hard to get his attention. Your mom's love and opinion matters, and she's there if you're willing to try. She'll always be there. Your siblings will be awesome...one day when they're not young and annoying.
Also, learn to manage money. Please. This is key.
Love,
Susana
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