Good times on the weekend

So this weekend was good. I'm happy. Not too much drama, and lots of fun and dancing. And some making out. Yeah, I had a good time.

So friday night we had a surprise thing for Gavin. It went well. Jessica straightened my hair, and it looked pretty. And everyone was there. Both Kasia and Robin were there, in the same room. I was glad. I don't like it when they fight, I feel like I have to pick, and if I hang out with one the other is mad at me. And yeah, Ela slept over. Hahahaha, I called her dad and asked him if it was okay that she came and stayed the night.

And Anthony was there, but he didn't say anything to me at all. Which is good, it made it easier. That way, I can still pretend he doesn't exist, and he can't say he missed an event because of me. And he can't claim I'm brainwashing people.

Anyways, saturday night we went downtown to Distrikt to meet some of the Montreal people. Yeah, not my favourite club. The first floor room looked like someone's unfinished basement, comeplete with wood walls and holes in the floor. And shitty music. The upstairs was at least a little bit better looking, and had much better music. But yeah, Sayurie, Ann, and Sherrie were there. It was awesome to see them again. I missed them more than I thought.

So yeah, I felt so much better about myself. I know it's dumb, but after the whole thing with Anthoyn, I thought maybe I just wasn't attractive at all anymore. But I had two guys tell me I was gorgeous and that I had the prettiest face ever and ask if they could take me home, and I had two guys try and dance with me, and even a girl hit on me. And then there was the guy who just grabbed my hand, pulled me over, and started dancing with me. Man, was it some dirty dancing. Lots of grinding. And then we started making out. And yeah, I don't know what he looked like. That may sound horrible, but I so needed some kissing. And yeah, I don't care if I couln't recognize him ever again.

Jack was a little weird, though. It seemed like something was wrong, but none of us could figure out why. He just kep walking off and wandering around...and didn't dance with us for too long. Why not, Jack?? What was wrong??

But yeah, then on the way out, me and Robin got caught literally in the middle of a fight. As in, we were walking in front of a club, and the guys at the door and the guys on the street tried to attach each other, and we were right in the middle. And then there were cops. And cops on horses, and the horse was on just two legs on the sidewalk as the cop tried to calm ppl down...it was a little scary.

And then we got pizza. It was yummy.

And so today I went to the flea market and bought some movies. We already watched Resident Evil, which so seems to be set up for a fourth. That'd be awesome. But you know, I liked the second one better.

Anyways, off to start another work week. But I told Ann I'd try to see her again this week, and Sherri mentioned something about dinner. So hopefully we can see each other more.

And Rose bought her ticket!!!! She's coming down on Dec 28th. I'm so excited!!!!!! She's gonna come with me to the friends dinner and then we're so gonna party for new years!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!

Anyways, bedtime now.
Nighty night.
~Susana

Random ramblings.

So I have something wrong with three disks in my spine. I'm not sure exactly what's wrong with them. But according to the doctor, I have to do a month of physio, and if that doesn help, then I have to have surgery. And you know, I know it won't help. I've had to do physio before, and it didn't work. I really don't think this time will be much different.

So lately I've been feeling weird. Like I want to do something, but I don't know what. Like I should be looking forward to something, but I don't know what, because everything is a maybe. Kinda just stir-crazy. I think that's the right word for it. At least, it is in my head.

And I really miss sex. Not that it was so often or even so great with Anthony, but yeah, I miss having the option of having it. I just need a boy, even for a night. Some making out, some sex...yeah, that'd work. Except I'm not as confident as I used to be. I used to be able to find guys to make out with anywhere I went. Now, not so much. I think that's what bothers me the most, the lack of confidence.

I should work on that. And I should work on fixing what I don't really like. Do something with my hair, get contacts. Maybe get my nails done, that's always a booster. Sadly, I can't go to the gym right now. Now that I know I have three fucked up disks, I don't want to risk hurting them more. So I have to wait until I see the specialist and the physio ppl so that I know what I can and can't do. I don't really want to have to need surgery.

And so there's a guy at work that I'm in love with. Okay, not in love with. but man, is he hot. I heart him. Haha, I love saying that, it sounds so funny. But no, really, I love to watch him. He's so pretty, it makes me happy. Yeah, I'd so jump him. In a heartbeat.

Anyways, done now. Nighty night.
~Susan a

Touristas!!!

So Vegas was awesome. It's honestly gotta be the best thing I've done. I'm so glad that I decided to go.

So we got there on wed at about 11 pm their time, 2 am our time. So by the time we checked in and everything, it was almost 3. And then me and Jarx went walking around our hotel, which was pretty big. And yeah, you can walk around smoking and carrying your alcohol. Inside and even on the streets. But we were both too tired to go walk on the strip, so we went to bed.

Thursday morning, Jarx and his friend Dan went to the car show, and I got picked up at 8:30. The your took us to a museum that had old houses that ppl, could walk around in, and a ghost town set up to look like an 1800's settlement. After that, we went to Ethel's Chocolate Factory, which has the best chocolate EVER. I don't know why we don't have any here, but it was so worth the price. I paid like $20 for 3 chocolate bars and a bag of chocolate covered pretzels. So worth it. Anyways, from there, we went to take a tour of Sumerlin, which is absolutely beautiful. It's weird though, because the houses either have astroturf (soccer field grass) or just cement/dirt/rocks in their front yard, and in some of the backyards too. There's barely any rain there, so you can't just waste water on the grass. So yeah, on the a buffet lunch at the Marriott. Not only was lunch fantastic, but the hotel itself was amazing. So gorgeous. Anyways, once we were done there, we went on to Red Rock Canyon. Man, another pretty site. Mountains everywhere, warm weather, nice breeze....fantastic.

After the Red Rock Canyon, I got dropped off at the Mirage and walked to the mall. Yeah, the mall was huge and it had tons of stores...so I bought a few things. None for me really, but for my mom and Gaby. So then I got back to the hotel, and we got changed and started walking down the strip. We ate at Wendy's (yeah, I know, so awesome). Then we walked down the entire strip. Yeah, I so did not make it to the last hotel. Halfway down, we stopped at a bar where I had three tequilla shots. Then we moved on to Coyote Ugly where I had another two. And then on to LAX Nightclub at the Luxor hotel, where I had three more. So then I attempted to walk back and made it about a third of the way. So I got into a taxi and went back.

Three hours later, it was time to get up and go meet the bus at the front. So we went, and yeah, I was still wasted. And so we went over the Hoover Dam, and kept driving, with one 15 minute stop for a break, and a lunch stop. And then on to the grand canyon!! It was amazing. Absolutely fantastic. I can't even find the right words to describe how beautiful and breathtaking it was. I never wanted to leave. And on top of that, the weather was great. Warm, with no humidity, and a nice cool breeze. I mean, I was in heaven. I NEED to go back. See more of it. Maybe actually go into the canyon.

Anyways, from there, it was back to the hotel. And then we were supposed to go to the Playboy Club, but we so didn't make it. So we went for dinner and then we got all dressed up and went to walk around. We went to the Wynn and walked around the stores, and then we went o back to sleep 'cause we were too tired.

Saturday kicked ass. We got up, went to eat breakfast buffet, and then checked out. And then we got picked up by the rental car ppl, and we got our car. A Mustang convertible. I was in heaven!!! I've never been in a convertible, and we figured since we won't really get the chance to do it again, we might as well go all out. So we drove with the top down and the music blasting. We went to the outlet malls and bought stuff for ppl. And then we drove to California. That's right, California.

I don't know if I can explain how great I felt. Driving in a nice car, with the top down, the wind messing up my hair, good music, great scenery....and then Jarx mentioned something about Anthony. And I realized that if I was still with him, I would never have had those three amazing days. So you know, I'm glad. And yeah, driving down, I was so super happy and content. And so we went to have a late lunch (like at 4), and then we drove back. And Jarx let me drive!! For like a kilometre and a half, but still!!! And then we went to take a pic with the "Welcome to Fabulous Las Vegas" sign, and attempted to drive down the strip, then tried to go down a faster route, got all frustrated....eventually made it to Walgreen's, bought what we needed to, and then went to the airport.

And then we came home. I was up talking to my family and eating breakfast with them until about noon, then I went to sleep.

And no, you dind't read wrong, and no, I didn't miss it. We didn't gamble. At all. I think Jarx spent a dollar and I spent none.

So next trip is New York in January. And I'm thinking maybe New Orleans for my bday. Mardi Gras is the 19th, so really, it'd be doable. Plus, it's a long weekend, so even if we leave friday after work, ppl only have to take one, maybe two days off work. So I'll see how I can work that. you ever know, it might work.

And yeah, if I get the chance, I'm moving to the Arizon/Nevada/Cali area. It was just too good to not move there. It's beautiful, the weather is awesome, and you don't have to worry about mowing the lawn or shoveling the snow. I doubt I ever will, but it would be nice. Anyways, it's midnight, and I have to work tomorrow. So I guess I should go.

But I want to add a few pics, and then I'm off.

There's more pics on facebook, but only like two albums. But I mean, I took almost 600 pics, so I'm not gonna post them all. And Jarx took anothe rlike 500. I know, we're a little camera happy.

But yeah, bedtime now. Nighty night.
~Susana