Now things are coming clear and I don't need you here, and in this world around me, I'm glad you disappeared....

A few questions that I need to know
How you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
And how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
But I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face
Or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter,
Either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
All the answers to my questions
I have to find
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Yeah, I know. The journal title and the song part I picked contradict each other. And it doesn't make sense to feel both at once.....Welcome to my world. It sucks feeling both.

So I don't know what I want to do with my life. I do want to finish school and all that, but I have no idea what I want to do. I'm thinking marketing now. It's kinda like advertising, in a weird way, but it doesn't involve the kind of creative thinking process that advertising does. I found a part time certificate for it at U of T, so I'm thinking of doing that. Only problem is that I want to go to school with lots of new ppl, and maybe go live somewhere else, meet new ppl. Maybe I'm just a little jealous. Both Kasia and Jack got to meet new people this year in school. I mean, I met tons of people in Montreal, but I think I want to meet people I can hang out with often. I don't really see any of the Montreal girls here, and the ones I really liked hanging out with live way too far away.

But I can't do it all. The car, the travel, full-time school. Which is why I'm willing to do part-time school, so I can still have the car and do the travelling. Hopefully it works out for me. I don't know, maybe I'll get the certificate, and then do the option to switch it to a degree and keep going from there. We'll have to see how that goes.

And yeah, I've been looking into Mardi Gras. It's gonna cost about $1200. About $550 for the flight, $300 for the room, and the rest for food and drinking. And that's if the room is split by 4 ppl. It seems like more than most people will want to spend. But I mean, we did almost the same for Vegas, and that was only 3 days. And this hotel would put us on Bourbon St fot the Mardi Gras parade. Right in the middle of the party. I don't know, I'll have to look more into it, see if people are interested. Hopefully it's doable, I'd really like to. I've always wanted to go. I mean, if I don't get to this year, maybe I'll start planning for next year.

And so Drew and Becky had their baby. A girl. I don't know more than that. Don't know the weight, the time, the name....nothing!! I hope everything went well and that both Becky and the baby are doing great.

I am jealous, though. I want one. I just didn't realize how much I wanted one until someone else has one. So sad, it's years away for me. I feel like I'm still a kid, and then I realize I'm 23 and an adult. So why the hell aren't I living the life of an adult?? Maybe I am, and I just don't see it.

I don't know. Lately I've been really down and thinking too much crap. Like about babies. And Anthony. Stupid fucker. I can't get him out of my head. Nicole says it's normal, but then why do I feel like I've gone backwards in time to when we first broke up?? I need to stop this. Nicole also said it's because I need a boy to help me move on, and I think that's true. Is that pathetic?? Because it seems, to me, like it should be. It's horrible. Why do I need a boy?? But I know she's right, and I miss having a boy. See, I think it's only this hard because he has someone else. Seriously. Because I don't feel he ever felt bad or missed me. So it's hard. Maybe if I had a new boy, it'd be like the movies. Where he sees me happy with someone else, and then he wants me back, but I'm happy with the new boy, and then I get to tell him to get lost and he gets to be hurt and heartbroken. Yeah, I like that scenario. Now if only I could make it happen....

But yeah, so where am I supposed to meet someone?? I have no idea.

Anyways, bedtime for me.
Nighty night
Susana

Everybody, put up your hands, say, "I don't want to be in love! I don't want to be in love!"

It was a slap in the face
How quickly I was replaced
And are you thinking of me when you fuck her?

And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back
I hope you feel it.
Well can you feel it?
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So yeah, so far, everyone's coming to the Christmas dinner. Me, Kasia, Tom, Krystal, Jarx, Ela, Jack, Sal, Tamara, Drew, Becky, Gavin, Robin, and Rose. Only Matt is a maybe. And he's the only one who hasn't answered me about Secret Santa. So I figure I'll draw names tomorrow and just leave him out. If he decides to come, he'll still be welcome, but he won't have a present. Oh, well. Too bad, so sad.

Anyways.....so Robin said that she talked to Gavin's parents and she said that there is a chance that something could be happening there for New Years. That makes me happy. I mean, if Rose and Ela still want to go to the club, we could always go, stay until about 1 am, and then head to Gavin's. I'll figure something out. But I like the house party idea. Really, I'm not too big on the club for new years idea.

So I've been reading non-stop lately, and watching my DVDs. Mainly ones my mom and Gaby will agree to. But I think this weekend I will watch some Rome. I know Jack wants it back (and no, you can't have them yet), so I really should get a move on those. Maybe I should just buy them, that way I can take my time. Haha, it would give me something new to eBay. I love eBay.

But yeah, so the reading and the Criminal Minds/Heroes helps. Especially reading. I'm in another world when I read. I can't hear things around me, I can't see people around me. Honestly, you could come in the room and take stuff, then walk back out, and I wouldn't notice. I'm awesome when I read. See, I don't see the words. It's like watching a movie. If it's a good book, I don't see any of the words on the page, I just see the story playing out in my head. I love it. Watching the tv shows are a little more mindless, just staring at the screen, but it's distracting nonetheless.

But yeah, anyways. Work is crazy. Stupid salesmen keep bringing in the contracts at the last minute, so I'm always running around looking for files. It's getting kinda annoying. I keep getting shit from Nick for it, but really, there's nothing I can do about it. If they would enforce their own rules, it would work much better.

Anyways, I'm going to bed now. Maybe I'll ramble on some more tomorrow. And don't worry, it'll also start with part of a song, and the title will be a line from a different song. Why?? Because it makes me feel better to write out a song that kinda shows how I feel. And the title is really because I'm just not creative at all, and it's easier to describe msyelf with something from music. It sucks that I wasn't born with more musical talent.

Haha, bet you can't guess the songs!!

Anyways, nighty night.
Susana

Things are good, except for that stupid boy problem I still have...

"I Still" by BSB

Who are you now?
Are you still the same or did you change somehow?
What do you do at this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
Yeah, I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last

I try to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

I wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go

Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
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So I still think about him way, way too much. He doesn't think about me, so isn't it about time I stopped?? But how do I stop??

AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD!!!

God, I miss having someone to hold me. And to talk to. And to kiss. And to make everything better..... It's okay. One day he'll be out of my head. And when I can stop wondering what went wrong and wondering why he's with someone and I'm not, then, and only then, can I try to be friends with him. But until that day, I fucking hate him. And if I don't have to see him, I won't. And if I don't have to invite him, I won't. But one day, it'll change. I know it.
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So yeah, on a happy note, I got tickets to see Three Days Grace. Yay!!! That makes me uber happy. Hopefully, it won't be as violent as the one in Ohio.

Also, I'm booking my G2 test soon. I'm aiming for the next two weeks. And I'm aiming to have the car by Christmas.

And I got a new phone!!! Man, it's freaking awesome!! It's the LG Shine. So pretty. It's one of those that slides up to use, instead of flipping open. And it has Rogers on Demand, and music videos, and MSN, and it's an MP3 player.....it's awesome. I love it. And the plan I got is fantastic too. I can basically use it all I want without worrying about going over my minutes. I love it!! Now all I have to worry about is this internet usage. I seem to be on it a lot....

And yeah, so Jarx said he's in for New York. You know what that means?? I won't be going by myself!! All I needed was one person to come with me. I'm so looking forward to it. Statue of Liberty, Empire State building....it'll kick ass!! I'm glad he's my travel buddy. I just hope Krystal doesn't think anything of it. I mean, lots of people told me I shouldn't go with someone else's bf, and I think a few ppl told her that she shouldn't have been okay with it. But me and Jarx would never happen, we'd end up killing each other. Not to mention he has cooties. Anyways, it'll kick ass, and we'll have a great time!!

And I've made the Christmas dinner event on facebook. And so far, most ppl are coming. I don't know if Robin and Gavin are coming, but I hope they do. I didn't invite Anthony, but you know, no one's really said anything about him not being there, so I won't worry about it. Plus, really, me and Kasia have been doing this dinner for longer than we've known them, and neither of us like him, so too bad.

And to make things better, Kasia might be moving her bday party to the 8th, which means I'll be able to go to both her party and the work Christmas party with no problems!! That makes me super happy, 'cause I don't have to miss either one.

Anyways, done rambling now. Bedtime.
Nighty night.
Susana

'Cause I know that you're not there, and I know that you don't care....

I close my eyes, and all I see is you....
I close my eyes, I try to sleep, I can't forget you...
And I'd do anything for you....

I'd do anything, just to hold you in my arms...
I'd do anything, just to fall asleep with you...
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I'm telling you, that's the worst song to listen to when you're feeling depressed. Very bad. Stupid Simple Plan and their damn emo songs. You know what else is bad?? Backstreet Boys' "I Still". Such a good song, but not when you're feeling down.

But yeah, so I don't know what happened. Everything was going great today, and then I just felt like shit. It sucks.

So Ela came over at 7 am. Had breakfast, then went to the driving place. We got there at 8:34. 14 minutes after it opened. Man, was it packed. So we waited forever!! And then me and my mom went in and wrote our tests. And we both passed!! So yes, I got my G1. And I did clarify it with the lady there, and I don't have to wait the 8 months for my G2. So I'm trying to do it next week. That way, I can have my car!!!

And so Ela was telling us about going to Germany for the summer. And so I've decided that I may cancel the Mardi Gras trip, and instead, go visit her for her birthday in Germany. It'd be awesome!! I've never been to Europe, and I wouldn't even have to pay for a hotel!!! But it all depends on if she gets hired, really. We'll have to wait and see how it goes.

So yeah, then I went to buy the rest of Becky's baby gift. I found a few cute things. But my sister convinced met o buy them in yello and green, which seems more boy than girl. I'm hoping they come off as neutral, but I don't really know. But oh, well. I like what I bought. It's nice.

And so I went to look at cell phones. I want a new one, and I want a plan, so I have to get a contract. The deal they have now is awesome, so I'm gonna get it. I like two of the phones, one is a BlackBerry, and one is a new one with video conferencing. I know, I don't need video conferencing, but the phone is so pretty. So I'm going tomorrow to pick it up.

Anyways, so then I came back home, watched Eragon, and ate pupusas. So really, overall, a good day. And then I read a book. Yes, a whole book. And then I decided to check facebook. And I saw pics of Anthony, and for some weird reason that I can't explain, I missed him more than ever. And I felt like I was back in Montreal with all that pain. And all I wanted to do was cry. And I can't explain why. Why now, so much later, I feel like this.

I know it'll pass. It's prolly just a panic attack and I associated it with him because I was looking at pictures with him. But you know, it sucks.

I wanted to call him, and yell at him, and ask him why. Thankfully, I realized that would be stupid. I have yet to call him since we broke up, so I don't see why I would start now. Well, there was that one time I was trying to call my cell phone and accidentally called his, but I don't count it because I hung up after one ring. But besides that, I have not called him. And I no longer even have him on facebook or msn.

I should pretend he doesn't exist.

You know what sucks, now, though?? I was thinking about Drew and Becky having their baby, and I realized something. It's now even further from me. A family. I mean, I don't really know if I thought me and Anthony were gonna get married and live happily ever after, but it just seemed like a family was possible. Right now, it seems like it'll never happen.

And I'm not saying I want a baby right now, but I was hoping for like 2 or 3 years or so from now, not another 5 or 6.

Anyways, I should go to bed. I have to do laundry tomorrow morning, and then go to the mall to get my new phone and a gift bag before going to the baby shower. And you'll see, I won't get any of that done. Hahaha, I'm awesome with the procrastination.

Anyways, nighty night.
~Susana

Such a good day. Why did this have to happen??

Some more pointless ramblings

So I've had 5 bofriends. 4 of them I dated for a month or so (well, one I dated twice, for a month each time), and one of them for 4 years. So should I really feel alone right now?? Shouldn't I be enjoying my single time?? I think it's about time I get to enjoy being an adult and single. Have some fun with it. I mean, right now, I have no one tying me down. I can go where I want, when I want. And in like two or three weeks, I'll have a car, and I'll be able to go more places and do more things than before.

Think about it. In the last four months (yes, it's been that long), I've been to Montreal and Quebec City, I've been to Ohio, I've been to Vegas, I've been to countless other weekend trips (Collingwood, cottage, etc.). Should I really feel bad??

I mean, so far, he's gone nowhere. He's still doing the same exact thing he was doing when we ended. He's still working part-time at the same store. Same hours, prolly. He's still living with his parents, with his grandma doing his everything. He's still always short on money. He still hasn't gone anywhere.

I should be happy. Obviously, I've come out better for this. I've progressed, I've moved ahead. I've gotten a good job, travelled, and am planning to travel more. I've made many new friends. Some which I'll be friends with for a long time to come.

And yet I haven't moved on. Sad, I know. But I haven't. I've been doing better, yes. But not moved on. And I really have no idea how long it'll take to completely be past this.

I think it doesn't help that ever since we broke up, he's been with someone. He's always had someone there. He hasn't missed that. I, on the other hand, don't have that. I've had offers, but nothing that would last more than the night, really. And yeah, I'm sure the night would be fun, and I'm not ruling it out as something I would never do, but right now, it's not something I want either. I want someone to make me happy, and make me feel wanted, and make me feel safe. Someone to put their arms around me and make everything better. And for a while, he was that person. Now he's not for me anymore, but he still is for someone else. And I don't have that, and I think that's what makes it harder.

And it's not because of him, really, or because I miss him. I miss having someone. And I wish he could feel what I feel, missing that.

But you know, I saw her picture. And really, I think it's kinda funny. I mean, I may have my flaws, but that's what he picks over me?? Hahaha, he can have her.

And why is he still wearing my sweaters???? He calls me and tells me that he wants his shit back, and that my stuff will be at Tom's by the weekend, and yet it's all shit. He's in pictures, wearing my sweater. The sweater I bought when I met Jarx, and I used to steal his. The black Exco sweater. Some of you will know what I'm talking about. And he's still fucking wearing it!! When he's with her!! He better not be letting her whorish ass wear it!!

Back to what I was saying.....what was I saying?? Whatever, I lost my train of thought.

So I've decided that for my bday, I'm definately going somewhere. I haven't decided where yet, but I have time. I like the New Orleans plan. I've always wanted to go to Mardi Gras. And if no one else wants to come at all, then I'll just hop on a plane and go stay at my Tia Monze's house in LA. That wouldn't be too bad. And I could see the ocean!!

Wow, this post is pointless rambling. Okay, time to stop. And go to bed. Maybe for once go to bed early and get a good night's sleep.

Nighty night.
~Susana

So obviously I'm pissed...

So I bought a new dress today. It's black, it's booby, and it's shorter than my normal dresses. It's above the knee. Not too much, though. I'm wearing it to the work Christmas party. I'm excited. I'm gonna wear it with my strappy black stiletto sandals. Hopefully it looks good. :D

Anyways, so the yurt camping thing isn't happening. We couldn't get one in Algonquin, and Gavin says we can only do his cottage if Sal agrees, but I never talk to Sal, so when can I ask him?? And now Jarx and Krystal can't come anyways....and even if I decide to plan something anyways, not Kasia's saying we should stay and do something for Sal. I don't see why, I'm not really his friend. He's done nothing for me but ignore my feelings and make me feel worse. And apparenlty Matt is the one who wants to go out for Sal's bday. Yeah, another person I don't particularily care for. Plus, I don't even know if anything is even happening. Really, I haven't been invited to anything nor heard any concrete plans.

So yeah, I'm upset about that.

But yeah, anyways.......so the work xmas party falls on the same night as Kasia's bday. Problem is, I told Nicole I'd take her as my date before Kasia told me she was doing something that night. So then yesterday when I talked to her, she made me feel bad for missing it. And I'm sorry, but I'd already told Nicole and everything. It's not like I can't hang out with Kasia for her actual bday, or go to dinner and a club with her any other day. I don't understand why going to a club 4 days later is all that important.

I'm just tired of people making me feel guilty for not doing what they want, but no one doing what I want at all. So you know what?? Too fucking bad for all of you. I don't care what you want.

So obviously I'm not in the greatest mood. I really should just go to bed and hope that tomorrow works out better than today. Not that today was bad, really, but whatever.

I'm just mad at everyone right now. Yeah, you know what?? Bedtime.
Nighty night.

~Susana

Good times on the weekend

So this weekend was good. I'm happy. Not too much drama, and lots of fun and dancing. And some making out. Yeah, I had a good time.

So friday night we had a surprise thing for Gavin. It went well. Jessica straightened my hair, and it looked pretty. And everyone was there. Both Kasia and Robin were there, in the same room. I was glad. I don't like it when they fight, I feel like I have to pick, and if I hang out with one the other is mad at me. And yeah, Ela slept over. Hahahaha, I called her dad and asked him if it was okay that she came and stayed the night.

And Anthony was there, but he didn't say anything to me at all. Which is good, it made it easier. That way, I can still pretend he doesn't exist, and he can't say he missed an event because of me. And he can't claim I'm brainwashing people.

Anyways, saturday night we went downtown to Distrikt to meet some of the Montreal people. Yeah, not my favourite club. The first floor room looked like someone's unfinished basement, comeplete with wood walls and holes in the floor. And shitty music. The upstairs was at least a little bit better looking, and had much better music. But yeah, Sayurie, Ann, and Sherrie were there. It was awesome to see them again. I missed them more than I thought.

So yeah, I felt so much better about myself. I know it's dumb, but after the whole thing with Anthoyn, I thought maybe I just wasn't attractive at all anymore. But I had two guys tell me I was gorgeous and that I had the prettiest face ever and ask if they could take me home, and I had two guys try and dance with me, and even a girl hit on me. And then there was the guy who just grabbed my hand, pulled me over, and started dancing with me. Man, was it some dirty dancing. Lots of grinding. And then we started making out. And yeah, I don't know what he looked like. That may sound horrible, but I so needed some kissing. And yeah, I don't care if I couln't recognize him ever again.

Jack was a little weird, though. It seemed like something was wrong, but none of us could figure out why. He just kep walking off and wandering around...and didn't dance with us for too long. Why not, Jack?? What was wrong??

But yeah, then on the way out, me and Robin got caught literally in the middle of a fight. As in, we were walking in front of a club, and the guys at the door and the guys on the street tried to attach each other, and we were right in the middle. And then there were cops. And cops on horses, and the horse was on just two legs on the sidewalk as the cop tried to calm ppl down...it was a little scary.

And then we got pizza. It was yummy.

And so today I went to the flea market and bought some movies. We already watched Resident Evil, which so seems to be set up for a fourth. That'd be awesome. But you know, I liked the second one better.

Anyways, off to start another work week. But I told Ann I'd try to see her again this week, and Sherri mentioned something about dinner. So hopefully we can see each other more.

And Rose bought her ticket!!!! She's coming down on Dec 28th. I'm so excited!!!!!! She's gonna come with me to the friends dinner and then we're so gonna party for new years!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!

Anyways, bedtime now.
Nighty night.
~Susana

Random ramblings.

So I have something wrong with three disks in my spine. I'm not sure exactly what's wrong with them. But according to the doctor, I have to do a month of physio, and if that doesn help, then I have to have surgery. And you know, I know it won't help. I've had to do physio before, and it didn't work. I really don't think this time will be much different.

So lately I've been feeling weird. Like I want to do something, but I don't know what. Like I should be looking forward to something, but I don't know what, because everything is a maybe. Kinda just stir-crazy. I think that's the right word for it. At least, it is in my head.

And I really miss sex. Not that it was so often or even so great with Anthony, but yeah, I miss having the option of having it. I just need a boy, even for a night. Some making out, some sex...yeah, that'd work. Except I'm not as confident as I used to be. I used to be able to find guys to make out with anywhere I went. Now, not so much. I think that's what bothers me the most, the lack of confidence.

I should work on that. And I should work on fixing what I don't really like. Do something with my hair, get contacts. Maybe get my nails done, that's always a booster. Sadly, I can't go to the gym right now. Now that I know I have three fucked up disks, I don't want to risk hurting them more. So I have to wait until I see the specialist and the physio ppl so that I know what I can and can't do. I don't really want to have to need surgery.

And so there's a guy at work that I'm in love with. Okay, not in love with. but man, is he hot. I heart him. Haha, I love saying that, it sounds so funny. But no, really, I love to watch him. He's so pretty, it makes me happy. Yeah, I'd so jump him. In a heartbeat.

Anyways, done now. Nighty night.
~Susan a

Touristas!!!

So Vegas was awesome. It's honestly gotta be the best thing I've done. I'm so glad that I decided to go.

So we got there on wed at about 11 pm their time, 2 am our time. So by the time we checked in and everything, it was almost 3. And then me and Jarx went walking around our hotel, which was pretty big. And yeah, you can walk around smoking and carrying your alcohol. Inside and even on the streets. But we were both too tired to go walk on the strip, so we went to bed.

Thursday morning, Jarx and his friend Dan went to the car show, and I got picked up at 8:30. The your took us to a museum that had old houses that ppl, could walk around in, and a ghost town set up to look like an 1800's settlement. After that, we went to Ethel's Chocolate Factory, which has the best chocolate EVER. I don't know why we don't have any here, but it was so worth the price. I paid like $20 for 3 chocolate bars and a bag of chocolate covered pretzels. So worth it. Anyways, from there, we went to take a tour of Sumerlin, which is absolutely beautiful. It's weird though, because the houses either have astroturf (soccer field grass) or just cement/dirt/rocks in their front yard, and in some of the backyards too. There's barely any rain there, so you can't just waste water on the grass. So yeah, on the a buffet lunch at the Marriott. Not only was lunch fantastic, but the hotel itself was amazing. So gorgeous. Anyways, once we were done there, we went on to Red Rock Canyon. Man, another pretty site. Mountains everywhere, warm weather, nice breeze....fantastic.

After the Red Rock Canyon, I got dropped off at the Mirage and walked to the mall. Yeah, the mall was huge and it had tons of stores...so I bought a few things. None for me really, but for my mom and Gaby. So then I got back to the hotel, and we got changed and started walking down the strip. We ate at Wendy's (yeah, I know, so awesome). Then we walked down the entire strip. Yeah, I so did not make it to the last hotel. Halfway down, we stopped at a bar where I had three tequilla shots. Then we moved on to Coyote Ugly where I had another two. And then on to LAX Nightclub at the Luxor hotel, where I had three more. So then I attempted to walk back and made it about a third of the way. So I got into a taxi and went back.

Three hours later, it was time to get up and go meet the bus at the front. So we went, and yeah, I was still wasted. And so we went over the Hoover Dam, and kept driving, with one 15 minute stop for a break, and a lunch stop. And then on to the grand canyon!! It was amazing. Absolutely fantastic. I can't even find the right words to describe how beautiful and breathtaking it was. I never wanted to leave. And on top of that, the weather was great. Warm, with no humidity, and a nice cool breeze. I mean, I was in heaven. I NEED to go back. See more of it. Maybe actually go into the canyon.

Anyways, from there, it was back to the hotel. And then we were supposed to go to the Playboy Club, but we so didn't make it. So we went for dinner and then we got all dressed up and went to walk around. We went to the Wynn and walked around the stores, and then we went o back to sleep 'cause we were too tired.

Saturday kicked ass. We got up, went to eat breakfast buffet, and then checked out. And then we got picked up by the rental car ppl, and we got our car. A Mustang convertible. I was in heaven!!! I've never been in a convertible, and we figured since we won't really get the chance to do it again, we might as well go all out. So we drove with the top down and the music blasting. We went to the outlet malls and bought stuff for ppl. And then we drove to California. That's right, California.

I don't know if I can explain how great I felt. Driving in a nice car, with the top down, the wind messing up my hair, good music, great scenery....and then Jarx mentioned something about Anthony. And I realized that if I was still with him, I would never have had those three amazing days. So you know, I'm glad. And yeah, driving down, I was so super happy and content. And so we went to have a late lunch (like at 4), and then we drove back. And Jarx let me drive!! For like a kilometre and a half, but still!!! And then we went to take a pic with the "Welcome to Fabulous Las Vegas" sign, and attempted to drive down the strip, then tried to go down a faster route, got all frustrated....eventually made it to Walgreen's, bought what we needed to, and then went to the airport.

And then we came home. I was up talking to my family and eating breakfast with them until about noon, then I went to sleep.

And no, you dind't read wrong, and no, I didn't miss it. We didn't gamble. At all. I think Jarx spent a dollar and I spent none.

So next trip is New York in January. And I'm thinking maybe New Orleans for my bday. Mardi Gras is the 19th, so really, it'd be doable. Plus, it's a long weekend, so even if we leave friday after work, ppl only have to take one, maybe two days off work. So I'll see how I can work that. you ever know, it might work.

And yeah, if I get the chance, I'm moving to the Arizon/Nevada/Cali area. It was just too good to not move there. It's beautiful, the weather is awesome, and you don't have to worry about mowing the lawn or shoveling the snow. I doubt I ever will, but it would be nice. Anyways, it's midnight, and I have to work tomorrow. So I guess I should go.

But I want to add a few pics, and then I'm off.

There's more pics on facebook, but only like two albums. But I mean, I took almost 600 pics, so I'm not gonna post them all. And Jarx took anothe rlike 500. I know, we're a little camera happy.

But yeah, bedtime now. Nighty night.
~Susana